WHY?

WHY?

Why is the sky blue?

Why is the grass green?

Why do the waves on the ocean roll across the beach?

Why did I get cancer and recover?

Why did my best friend get cancer, and will she recover?

Why is there such turmoil in the world today?

The first questions can be answered by science; you can look online, or actually go to the library and look up the answers. Science knows how the world works physically. There are a lot of questions that can be answered, but for me, there are a lot more that cannot be answered.

Why does one person get ill and die, and the person next to them recovers and goes on for years? Why do I see that my friend will go through what I did, and why can’t I have the answer as to what will happen?

For me, WHY is one of the worst question to ask, especially when it involves things I do not and cannot know. I will search for hours looking for an answer to questions. Some of them come easily. Why do leaves fall off the trees in the autumn? Why does water flow in the opposite direction below the equator? (go with me here, I’m looking for questions that I never thought of, lol). Why does my cat like to run like a maniac then fall asleep for hours?

Then there are the other questions listed above. Those WHY questions cannot be answered by me or anyone else. Oh, I know that there are people that can give good reasons why, good estimates on how long something will go on. They will tell that this is what will happen, that will happen, nothing will happen. They will use the past to tell me what the future will hold. The problem with that is the past is the past. The future can and often does change. What happens for me will not necessarily happen for you. My life is not your life.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9

But God! I need to know these things, I need to know! There lies the catch, the word NEED. I do not need to know these things. I WANT to know these things. I need food, air, water, but I don’t need to know what God’s plan is, I want to know. ( I am a curious person, lol).

God knows me, he holds me close, and I run to Him for comfort when all seems out of place. I don’t get the answers to the why questions above, but I do get answers to the why question here: Why do you love me?

God is love, He loves us, we don’t always do loving things, but our children don’t either, but we keep loving them. He loves us because we are His.

My prayers to Him are now not for answers, but for peace, for care, for Him to hold my family, my friends, my community, this world in His hands. I cannot see the end, I cannot see His answers to the question WHY is this all going on. I cannot see His master plan, but then I am not meant to see it.