My life is good. Are there things I would change? Sure, but wouldn’t everyone change something? But some of the things I would change have nothing to do with me.
I was adopted. Would I change that? No! I love my family, and if that changed, the family would change. I would add family, and that is what has happened lately. I have a sister, I have an uncle, maybe more that I still don’t know about.
My family, my mama, my daddy, my brother, they are gone. My son and his family live away from here, so we don’t see them often. But they are my family. David, my husband is here.
Of the ones that are not here, I miss my daddy the most. He was sick, and chose not to have doctors look at helping him. I understand that now, he was a wonderful man and chose to go home to God, but, boy did I miss him. I found out later that he could have lived. And this was long before what doctors know about cancer today. Do I wish he had gone that road and lived? Of course I do! I would have had him here. Do I respect his decision not to do what the doctors wanted to do? Yes. But there are days when I wonder what life would have been like if he had been around for me, and for mama. What would I tell anyone in that situation? Do what you can to live a long life with family, cancer can be cured if caught soon now, like mine was.
When I had cancer, some of these thoughts went through my mind. The first thing I thought was “I am supposed to go see all my family, my son, my daughter in law, my grandkids. Can I still go?” My first thought was not of me, but of family. So, I went through all the treatments, operations, etc. that come with cancer. I know how I felt without my daddy, I did not want my family to go through that too. Was I scared? Yes. Was it worth it? Yes!! I am here many years later, and still going on.
Do I still worry about things, of course, that is the human thing to do. But now I am learning how to put my worries on the shoulders of my Father, God, and let Him carry them and me. I am adopted into His family, and He takes care of it all. I still try to control things, lol. But I am getting better at letting go.
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